When I hear people talking about inter-racial boy-girl relationships, i really didn't give it much thought. But now.. reality sinks in - my best childhood friend is attached to a Malay for more than a month already as I speculate... and I only found out now. Such have we drifted apart. I'm detached from my best friends in pri sch, my good friends in sec sch and now i'm not even the least bit close to my classmates in JC... What has my education pursuits become of me? Other than my church friends.. my R/Ss with most of the other people are superficial. When i said I would catch up with my primary and secondary sch friends, I didn't. When was the last time I initiated a phone call to someone just to have a heart to heart chat? I dun even remember... My grandma always complains that I don't spend enough time with her... and what excuse do I come up with? I'm too busy with schoolwork.. And now? I'm dropping out of POS and taking a long break from Choir for the sake of my studies. The joy, laughter and sense of acheivement I get from doing what I love most.... pushed back, delayed... Why is my life so centred around doing homework and studying for exams when these are not even the most important things in life. Why do i have to forsake so much for a piece of paper with grades on it. Just how much am i sacrificing for my education pursuits? Just how very much......